Life In My Head

To be read in a Southern accent. It will give the best, most authentic experience because as I was writing it I was reciting it with one.

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it continues to rain
and I continue to pour
my heart and soul out
while laying on the floor

this floor you used to walk
this floor we danced upon
these cracks listen so well
as the memories drain on

I can’t help but notice
I can’t help but feel
the more I go on
the less real they feel

did I make this up
was any of it true
did he really love me
am I just a fool

this floor feels so safe
it doesn’t let me feel weak
it puddles my sadness
leads it away from my cheeks

but as more time goes on
I feel less secure
I feel so damn foolish
so painfully immature

this floor is so much like love
I have finally come to
so soft, sweet and trusting
but you see, it can always fall through

-JSP

So I know that this is super old news in the media, but I can not let it go. I keep hearing about it in parodies and youtube videos and it’s driving me B-A-N-A-N-A-S. I can not even watch one of Gaga’s videos anymore without seeing some Madonna lover, Gaga basher comment.

So if you live under a rock, or simply do not care about this stupid argument (good for you) the whole idea of it is that Lady Gaga’s “Born this Way” song is apparently a copycat of Madonna’s “Express Yourself”. Seriously? Have people even heard these two songs? One is painfully slow and does not match it’s instrumental background. One is super fast and makes everyone wanna dance and shimmy across the dance floor like a zombie on drugs. You can decide which one is which, in your own opinion.

Tell you what I think. You know what “Express Yourself” sounds like? “Vogue”. You know who sings “Vogue”? Madonna. I didn’t even ever care enough to notice until I was listening to “Express Yourself” to hear any Gaga in there and I couldn’t help but want to Vogue. That was weird. So really the only person who’s songs sound like Madonna’s are Madonna’s. I mean I am not saying there is anything wrong with this. Mostly because I am unsure if plagiarizing yourself is wrong to do. I don’t think it should be, but I’m sure many [profs] would argue that.

I do not think that these songs sound enough alike to make it an issue. Am I crazy? I even listened to a mix up (no, it was definitely not a mash up) of the two songs, meant to make people hear the similarities, and I still do not hear it. I still hear “Vogue”. Maybe I love Gaga more than I thought. Who knows.

Ok so maybe if you still want to argue that there are like some instrumental parts that are similar (which I still don’t hear, but anyway) isn’t almost every song the same then?

And for that matter, what about the 90s. Gosh, that era of music was just full of the same crap being pumped out by different people all decade long. Every pop song from the 90s that we all love (yes you do) sounds the same. Super banging “bass”, electronic-y voices, extra fast beat (so as to be perfect to play at the raves) just some fist pumping madness. I listen to AOL RADIO on the 90s pop station so, I know this stuff.

So, couldn’t one argue that anything ever written could relate to something that was written before it. After all, we are all human (even if you believe you are not) and we are all inspired or influenced by other people. How many sounds can you actually make? I bet that the person who is credited for “inventing” music isn’t really the one who invented it at all. I am pretty sure that the story of music starts with the first real creation of an instrument, but there was probably someone years before that who took some rocks and jingled them. Or someone knew about the blowing on the blade of grass in between your thumbs thing way before we did.

I don’t know. All I know is that I don’t think Lady Gaga stole Madonna’s “sound” at all. I think Gaga’s response was something to the effect of liking her growing up so maybe that’s where her inspiration came from. LEGIT possible. I’m just saying. Also, I don’t even know if Madonna cared about this whole thing, but I really don’t really care either.

As long as an artist didn’t take a song, strip the words out, and literally use the EXACT music, what’s the big deal? You didn’t invent it anyway. I don’t write music, but I am an avid listener, and it’s all the same to me. It’s all about expression and just rockin out in your own way.

I have no idea what the purpose of writing this down was. I feel annoyed that this was a “controversy”. First of all, seriously? Second of all, maybe you didn’t catch on, but I just don’t see [hear] it.

Listen yourself. See if you hear it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5eKAVVe1rXQ&feature=related

Stay hydrated. Smell some flowers today, but don’t linger in people’s gardens, it looks weird. And if you are going to a flower store to do it, buy something because then you look creepy. Who goes to a flower shop to browse?

Anywho, that’s just my opinion.

love love

You can take uni/college classes and read books on music, as many as you like. Studying lyrics, videos, time periods and all of that jazz that makes the records spin, but really no one can put in to words what music does for us, to us, at us, on us? It is so funny and weird to think about it that it actually makes me giggle a bit. When I hear certain songs, like so many others I am sure, I am instantly taken somewhere. Sometimes it can take you back to the first place you heard it, or back beside the first person who played it for you. Sometimes it takes you back to the desk you used to sit under to listen to it because you were holy bananas dramatic or spent a great deal of your life hammered. Or maybe, zoom, to the outside corner of the house where the wind didn’t blow at night where you’d stand with your iPod for complete silence so that you could let that song take over you and make you realize you loved someone, I dunno.  Maybe you find old cds and sit in your moms van with your sister, dying of heat attack because you are sitting, with the car off, in your driveway belting out the word to every song that you listened to from 2003-2005 (word for word thank you, raps and all, uh huh) but are too scared someone is going to pass by and fall down laughing at you so you keep the windows up. What if you had a “dance of the week” that you used props to make your own real life video to a new song off of NOW 3 or like Much Dance 2000 with a wicked sister/partner?

Sometimes it takes me down my daily path to downstairs J block where I’d shut the entire school out and think of my crush of the minute while I replayed the same song over and over.

That is like 6 scenarios. I have heard more than 6 songs, I think that you have too. The list of “possibilities” could probs go on for another 18 hours as you and I reminisce about our days, younger years, yesterday.

At the time I think those songs are like the most important things of our lives and when I hear them years later its like my life is rewound and I am taken right back there again. Cheesy as that may be, tacky as the songs may be; it is probably the coolest feeling ever, in my humbly bear opinion.

The best, is discovering years later that the songs that you were addicted to on your iPod that you probably stole (bad) had music videos. Yikes. Maybe those videos touch you. I don’t know. Well thats the glory and fabalab of youtube, hello. Isn’t it even better when you find out it’s like a nine year old who sings the song that you can’t stop singing and replaying? For sure it is! Maybe it becomes a more secretive love that you don’t throw around. I never do that, I love all my songs. Treat things fairly!
Welcome to my inspiration to write out this super long thought. Really what happened is I learned my unbelievable intolerance of radio commercials mixed with my super research skills brings me back in time like daily to clear as day déjà moments. Commercials bore me, musicless moments at my desk bore the life out of me so really this is just where you end up.

I am posting, with NONE kinds of embarrassment, some videos that may or may not be from scenarios that may or may not have happened to myself or maybe a friend of a friend of mine that were amazing, are amazing, and should be loved forever. I post only a few because legit 87 amazers come to mind when I think of rockin out by myself, or with my sister or maybe a very super boy in my life who loves to sing with me.

Here’s the homework that I am assigning to the air, and anyone who happened to stumble upon this long writing piece of yum. Stop youtubing that song you heard on the radio today. Instead, sit, think, type in the name of the song that you used to sing into your hair brush while re-enacting your version of that music video you saw *cough* lying on your bed looking up and singing at your ceiling pretending to be Britney Spears in “Oops I did it Again *cough* No? Yes you did that!

Find that song and love it for another 5 mins of your life. It feels soooo amazing. And finding that first one, I bet you, is going to open a new package of some serious obsession. This I will admit to. I’ve even started youtubing old Portuguese songs that I would sing along to. It’s fun. Trust. We can’t coupon here in Canada the way that those Couponers do in the States so really what else are you doing?

Listen to music. Eat your veggies. And never eat the reds ones last. It’s rude and segregation often leads to severe complexes. They taste the same and you will be judged less :)

Smoochels!

Ello! Thanks for coming in.

Soo I am a huge blog reader. I love reading peoples blogs. For goodness sakes, half of the time I don’t even know the people, and don’t want to know the people, who’s blogs I am reading. It’s probs the easiest ways to be friends with someone and involved in their lives with the littlest effort possible. That’s mean. But it’s true.

So I read em, and subscribe to em but I am too much of a lazy ass to even attempt to set up an account. And I have waaay to many like crazy, jittery, flying thoughts. Like I will still say them out loud, but given the fact that I only talk to my boyfriend and my mom on most days, and given the fact that I have like 12 followers on twitter…

So I’m thinkin, I’m funny. I say stuff. Why not write it down? So I did it. I’m writing it. I write how I think and say and do. This can be fun. Yea I’ll write it and post it publicly so it doesn’t seem like I am crazy and only talking to myself, like in a journal or something, and people probs won’t read it which is cool, this can freakin work.They don’t have to be long. They don’t have to make sense. No they do not.

So, if you read it…i love you. If you hate it, I guess I don’t care but I probs will still think that you suck and that you shouldn’t read blogs because clearly you are not a supportive person and I will not thank you for that.

I feel like I don’t join in in any trends. I don’t have an iphone *gasp* but I do have a blackberry, but in all honesty it barely counts because it has a flippin tracking BALL…seriously! This is my late new years resolution (only four months). Get out there. Social Media…wooooo. I like stuff. So Ima tell you about it when I think about it.

I already feel the love from tumblr though. It has just notified Facebook  that I just opened this freaking page, holy crap. This is going to be a really serious relationship. I can already tell. I like you. <3